i had a telepathic exchange this weekend, with jorge. Not just one statement or one thought, it was consistent for a few hours. i tried to tell my mom but she basically gave me a 'sigh' in a way that told me that she thinks this is just some kind of manifestation of an obsession. she doesn't take it seriously and i have no reason to believe you or anyone else will either honestly. i guess this is one of those things that i'm just supposed to know on my own.

but really i just can't believe it. i don't understand how that's even possible. it's like we didn't choose this or eachother, for this at least. we talked about it and just our general bond and it's unfortunate but we both confessed that no one else could compare. that doesn't exactly leave us with much to hope for, but the prospect of settling. i still wonder how this bond could evolve and i don't want to move from this spot falsely convincing myself that he'll feel this way forever-- although i sincerely feel i could.

i also just don't want to move from this spot. i overthink and i can't help it. there needs to be some kind of idea that can content me for now. but i'm not sure what that is yet.

i really don't want to leave Gainesville. this doesn't seem real.