Starting to feel like I don't have anything to share. Obviously I still have something to blog. Just kidding. Does living in a small city with no connections justify laziness and in activity? So what if I leave to Chicago everything is the same; inactive unproductive and so unfulfilled. I have a lot to say but I don't manage to do it all . What will it take to get me moving again? Or at all? It's so hard not to compare myself and every time I do I fall short. I keep being told that I just need to wait that things will change just give it time but I feel like that mentality is what has kept me where I am there has to be a different way . There must be more I can do there must be more worth doing. This is such a weird place to be in right now. I feel held down by so many fucking things.
I don't want to have reasons to complain anymore but I don't want to just do things so that I don't complain. I want the things I do to be meaningful and I don't want them to be easy or obvious. Maybe I just expect too much of myself too soon. Maybe things need to start out obvious and easy.
I have another blog I use for things that arent complaining: www.critischism.tumblr.com . Enjoy.
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